Update

People are remaining quiet on this sign, but there is nothing much you can do once life takes hold.

I'm going through a pretty wild and, admittedly, emotionally hard time right now.

Got shot down with a possible relationship I thought was going to happen with a friend I have been very close to for 7 years now. Figures. It all went down last week so I am still hurting and trying to recover from that wound. Still single and starting 2009 off to a great start (sarcasm).

Got some niffty things over the last few weeks. Some movies, shit ton of sugar I don't need (I've been giving it away every chance I got), some money from my grandparents (surprised they are still sending my siblings and I money) and a fish my sister sculpted out of clay.

Currently looking into signing up with an exercise class of some kind. Been looking at some yoga classes being offered as well as possibly signing up with a gym. I haven't decided yet because a gym membership is expensive and I don't quite have the money for it. So I am leaning more towards yoga...especially since there is a place 5 minutes away from my apartment.

Health wise, I have had a few scary things happen the last few days. Been having problems with my vision which would launch into a massive headache, loss of hand corridination in writing simple words (example: first), feel dizzy off and on, followed by the turning of my stomach without the nauseated feeling you get prior to the stomach turn.

Went to an urgent care clinic after work yesterday and the doctor thinks its a massive migraine.

Keyword: THINKS

Doctor wanted to prescribe me on Imitrex. I went to go pick up the prescription, or it's generic brand, at a Target to find that the damn thing costs $239 without insurance. Even with insurance it wasn't going to help much, plus it was only a $16 difference between the Imitrex and it's generic brand. Ouch.

But looking at what the symptoms of migraines and what I have been feeling....I am honestly not sure if it's a migraine I have. These are the exact stages I go through: My periphial vision goes blurry in my right eye so I can't see too well and this is closely followed by blind spots in my left eye. After 20-40 minutes of this, I am hit with a massive headache out of no where and I beginning having problems writing/typing simple words. The inability to type/write lasts for about 35 minutes or so before I am left with this horrible headache. Sometimes I am then effected by dizzyness and/or the turning of the stomache without nausea.

This has happened twice in two days now in that exact order.

So far today I have made it without having a third episode, but it is only 12:05am.

*sigh*

I will be heading back to the clinic after work today to schedule a time I can go to a lab and have tests done. I think something else is wrong. Not sure if it may be due to blood pressure, low blood sugar or something else. I had coworkers yesterday telling me that what I described to them could possibly be the beginnings of a stroke. This would not be a good thing....especially since I am 25 and shouldn't have to be dealing with something like this. Then again I am not a very healthy person by most standards.

It is scary though. In fact, I am terrified if it turns out being something that is causing me to possibly have a stroke.

But then again it could be migraines that I am suffering from. I've never had them before so I can't make anything of it.

As of right now, I will be getting lab tests done to rule out anything else. I would rather be proved wrong than to find out it's something else because someone may have been just slapping pills on a problem that most fit the symptoms.

It could be a "zebra" theory. Look at a striped horse from a distance and you make the conclusion it's a zebra, but walk closer and inspect a little more....it's a painted horse. Just because something looks similar, doesn't mean that it is the same.

So let's see what happens now.