Will be trying something new...

every once in a while I hit a realization that makes me really go back and think over some things and some times those things cause me to want to try a different approach.

1 - I have decided to stop initiating Instant Messenger conversations.. 3/4 of the time I feel like I am bugging the people I am messaging, so for awhile I am just not going to open any windows. Hopefully if people like to/ want to talk to me they will send me something through first for once... I expect to have very few conversations with a lot of people over this time.

2 - Stop putting my heart up for grabs for guys that are unattainable and ultimately, really not interested in me. Seems the people that I really have liked only like me every once in a while, usually when they have been drinking. That idea does not make me feel good and I end up feeling completely unreciprocated.

3 - I am not good at small talk. I am not chatty or casually friendly.. I don't have any animation to my face.. this partially goes back to #1... I have nothing worth while to talk about, so why would people want to talk to me? this is my bad.